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Thursday, May 8, 2008

its so unfair !! i can't go and hang out with coach unless my dad is here !! so unfair !! but i can change that .. by telling my mom or beg .. haha !! but still its so unfair .. i feel like i want to cry .. it hurts .. i don't want to be a baby anymore (but i'm still a baby from the inside as in i'm the baby of my parents forever) !! i'm turning 13 and i'm in high school .. i will not be in danger .. i wish she will know how i feel .. but sometimes i have to becareful what i wish for .. but i wish i can hang out with them everytime .. not really everytime .. wait i'll practice how i'll ask .. i want to cry !!!! T.T

it is so unfair !! i know i've been repeating this but it is so unfair .. i am even smashing the keyboard while i'm typing this .. but i still love my family more than you'll ever know or my love for my parents is more than the stars and my love for my family is just how many the stars are .. just kidding !! i love them with all my heart .. char !! but i need to be free too .. i want to cry .. i think i'm starting to cry .. i just want to hang out with my friends .. but i still love my family .. i just opened my life right now but i'm still so depressed .. just joking !!

i don't want to go back from the dark and depressing side .. i want to go the happy side .. of course i had some happy times when i was trap in the dark side .. but i'm so happy today that i can't be depressed right now .. i know life is suppose to be unfair and people should live with it but i want it different .. i never knew that my life can be like this .. full of happiness .. but .. i wish i'm like buddha .. he is always happy .. a smile is a way to end up difficult sittuations even if its a fake one .. thats what i should learn .. and i thnik this is too many ,, so bye !

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